and the semester is finally done, although i have to take some special exams, still im glad it's summer and i can finally relax. im teaching piano again. other than that im trying to concentrate on working on some pieces that i want to play. and yeah, i started reading twilight but i realized i didn't like it that much. it's pretty boring, with all the edward-bella conversations. i mean with all due respect to the fans. what interests me is the character developments of the other vampires, for example, Carlisle. Haha. yeah, im crazy about Carlisle. He's so kind and compassionate and yes, sexy (in the movie). haha. im still on the first book though, i might finish it or not.. *shrugs*
and also im loving Leona Lewis and her songs. haha. One song was introduced to me by Yume it's entitled Better In Time. it's a nice song. and it somehow applies to what I feel now. i've resolved to move forward. it hurts just to even think about it. to think about forgetting about someone and how much that person means to you, but if it means losing myself in the process.. id rather stop this and move on in my life. yeah. that's just how it will be from now on. i just hope i will be strong enough this time. (to you who might read this, i hope you stop acting silly and hiding away from me. don't give 'implied' actions that you just want me to interpret it. ) if you want to disappoint me, then by all means, but i hope you know, it's not just me that will be disappointed, but also yourself. you will eventually or already disappointed with yourself.
don't worry now, it will all be over na. i will move on.
Better In Time(Ooooh)
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will