August.

Midterms. Founder's Week. I finally got the cowboy hat I've been trying to get my hands on. Bought my first Paulo Coelho book. Veronika Decides To Die. Didn't join the Parada Sillimaniana. My Kuya Kyle visited me here in Dumaguete with his girlfriend Jenova. We cried, We missed home. We parted. I cried. Homesick. dot,dot,dot...

September.

Homesick still. Bianca's birthday, i called her. I missed her. Still miss her. Recital at the Luce for the first time. Messed up. Relieved. Took Ate Cha, Marchie and Mikhail to Neva's after recital. We ate pizza. National Book Store had a sale. Bought my 2nd Paulo Coelho book. :) BRIDA.


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I am itching to go home but... dot, dot, dot..

It's 3:15 in the morning and I still haven't gone to sleep. So is my roommate June. Today,oh wait, yesterday, I drank 2 small cartons of Nestle fresh milk, and in the afternoon, 2 glasses of mocha java at Scooby's. I didn't know what got into me. I just had too much beverages.
And right now, I'm so sleepy. I think I need to sleep. I actually have a lot to share for this day, but I guess we'll leave it at that. For now.
One thing though, I'm happy that the day turnder out okay despite the scorchingh heat of the sun. Sheesh. My eyes are dropping I really need to sleep. Good mornight.

A really wonderful clip. Watch and be inspired. Hope will always see us through. Keep believing!

Okay, I just bought the book. I only started reading the first few pages. But so far, it's okay.
I was just kinda annoyed at the fact that a friend of mine gave a negative feedback about the book, knowing that I was so enthusiastic and happy about having a copy after a long time. Sheesh. But I just let it pass. It's a free country after all. Anyhow, yeah. I'll decide if the book is good or what after I read it. :)
And, I just found out that there will be a movie of Veronika Decides to Die. Guess who's going to play Veronika.. I was surprised and giddy at the same time. Sarah Michelle Gellar will be playing as Veronika. Yes, Sarah, Buffy The Vampire Slayer Sarah! YES! It's so cool. I haven't seen any movies of her for quite a while. The latest I think that she did is the US version of The Grudge. I'm excited. I hope I'll finish the book before the movie is released. I want to have ample time to read reviews and maybe get some pre-feedbacks on the film. haha.

Here's the trailer for the movie Veronika Decides To Die

My dormmate and I were watching the MTV Unplugged of The Corrs. It was my copy and I brought it here in Dumaguete. Back there in our house, my brother and I would always watch this, and then now, I shared it with my dormmate who happens to also like The Corrs. I really love this performance among their other performances. Everything was really well performed and I just love that part where Caroline and Sharon sang No Frontiers. Another thing would be Andrea's playing of the tin whistle. Now I want one for myself. Huhu. Like one of these!


It has a Scottish feel into it. I really love it. I hope I'll have one someday. Hahaha. I really want to try it since I've been playing the flute. I already know how to play the recorder way back when I was 11, and I think the tin whistle is kinda like the same with the recorder. Weee.. Need to check on the price though. Hahaha.

And yes, I bought a new book, Paulo Coelho's Veronika Decides to Die. A friend of mine gave a negative comment. rawr. But I'll decide that for myself, after I finish reading the book. :)


And yes, I'm currently into Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra with the influence of our colleagues at the music department. :)
They're into ska, the mother of reggae. Hahaha.

Yes, someone else is sleeping in my bed here in the dorm. She's sleeping here right now, and for the last two nights I think. Well, I'm awake and trying to compose my mind on what to blog about at this time of the night. My other roommates are still up, Steph and Cammi. Life in the university dormitory is cool. You get to be with roommates who are so nice and cool..and not to mention younger than me.  Haha. Sheesh. But the thing that I hate the most about being here in the dormitory is the curfew. I know, I know. It's for our safety, blah, blah. Haha. But being in the College of Performing Arts there are times that we usually go home late..and it sucks when you always think about the time when you're having fun with your fellow colleagues. Sigh. I really hope to move out by the 2nd semester. But the only concern that I have when I move out is the food. T_T I really have trouble in budgeting my money.. Huhu. It's okay if I'll just get a fixed board at the university cooperative food services. I'm not really sure yet. Sigh. I haven't even talked to my mom about it. Anyhow... I'm just enjoying my stay here and especially in our college. As long as I have music.. there will never be a problem. Haha. And yes, speaking of problems... sheesh... my friend has relationship problems.. but i think it'll all be well soon. i hope.. sigh. the very best thing to do about a wrong relationship is to tear it down as soon as possible to avoid more casualties.. and i think she did the right thing. I'm not an expert about relationships, but i have my share of personal experiences and everything wasn't easy. it's not all 'happily-ever-after'. yes. very much not all that. but i learned though. and i learned it the haaaarrrddd wayyyy. haha. but as i look back, i'm thankful because it has become a stepping stone towards my dream, although i'm not thankful to what really happened, but im thankful to God that He has given me the strength to keep on. OH YEAH! :D

Other than that... I'm pretty much okay.. but missing my brothers real bad. Huhu. I'm quite sad but thankful. When we were still together we're not really that close with my brother.. now that we're apart, all three of us, I'm really missing them. And I look forward to seeing them soon. Huhu.

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I took a long break. haha. made a facebook quiz about myself. haha. lol. super bored. oh my.. look at the time..

2:21am i should be in bed. haha.

good mornight. :)

SONATINA IN G MAJOR op. 88 no. 2 (1st mov't) - Kuhlau

 

i still lack one piece for the contemporary period. been practicing only 2 hours per day. T_T i want to ask mom if it would be okay to bring the piano here. huhu. but i'll have to move into an apartment then, but that would be cool. we went apartment hunting yesterday and, we found one. really nice and homey.. want to transfer by the 2nd semester. sheesh. i'm just here taking a break.. ~_~ stress.
although i've had my fun over the weekend. haha. and im excited for the SU Band IPR next next week. hehe. but then again.. initiation.. T_T sheesh. anyhow.. more updates soon. :)

Ahaha! Last night. I was talking to a friend. Texting till 2am. :) Really cool. :D

and yes, im here in dumaguete. ah. i see trees of green..red roses too...
lovely lovely place...
back then, i thought my dream of coming and studying here will never be realized.. but hey.. I'M HERE!
I arrived here last Sunday, May 24,2009 around 7am in the morning.
We rested in one of the dorms of Silliman University.
It was so hot. Good thing there was an a/c in the room. Funny thing was, we set the a/c in the wrong way. Instead of lowering down the temperature, we increased it, thinking coolness would go higher. xD
Anyways.. later in the afternoon we went sightseeing around the campus, and took some pictures. hehe.


At around 4pm, we went to church.

Then last Monday, May 25,2009 was our audtion. We went to the SU College of Performing Arts (COPA).


This is the Guy Hall, and this is where the COPA is located. xD

The audition was nerve-wracking. There were 5 evaluators (jurors? xD).  When I entered the room, they asked me to say something about myself. It was crap. Hahaha. I was so nervous that I just blurted out anything that came up in my mind. They asked me some questions related to my subjects and then asked me to play. I played 2 pieces. My first piece was my recital piece last March, Waltz in Ab by Brahms. I messed up! T_T I had to stop playing. I didn't continue, cause if I did I'd mess up a whole lot more. So, I proceeded with my 2nd piece, which is Aria from the Bach Magdalene book. It was better. After that They let me sight-sing! T_T Which was so bad! I'm not sure if I got that right. Uwah~ It was really embarassing!! And the worst, was when we did rote-singing!!! That was super ultra embarassing! When I went out the room.. my mom was asking me how was it... speechless.
The audition continued and we had to wait for the others to finish before they give out the results...
After less than an hour... we were called inside the office... I was with my mom.. then we talked with Mr. Dean of COPA. xD and then he said... "You passed the audition and you'll be a regular student!" YATTA!!!
I was so happy! I thought I was going to be on the 'on-probation' list but I wasnt! YAY!

I'm so thankful to God and my parents for sending me off here! This is really so amazing! I believe that God just didn't brought me here out of whim, but because He has a plan for me. And I'm still in progress. 

After everything I went through it was GOD who gave me the strength to move forward and fulfill my dreams~!

And right now, I am in Dumaguete City, still in the process of enrolling myself in Silliman University and soon will belong to the College of Performing Arts as a Bachelor of Music student, majoring in Music Education.

A whole new world, a whole new start. Dreaming bigger, making GOD as my partner.




PS. This will be my dorm. xD The Larena Hall.




more pix on my FB. xD add me. Misty Kazumi (will add more soon) xD

At times, memories restricts our minds. But the mind...can be freed...with new encounters..

changed banner. (from Nodame Cantabile, got it from animepaper.net this was the image imagined by nodame when she was playing the Ravel piece, Jeux d'eau during her recital at the church
updated links.
updated sidebar.

haha. atleast i can feel something new here. lol.

more updates soon. ^_^


shoutouts to my linkies esp to misaki-neechan~  xD

Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind
she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy
Oh

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess you build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy

Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
Yes, ya did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy, oh, I'm the same old
Same old stupid boy

It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone
Long gone, long gone
Ah, she's gone

Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Baby, yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me

Yes, and I'm suffering with colds right now. Sheesh. Well summer for a start has been so good. I've started teaching in a music studio very far away from our place. haha. it's like from west to east. but yeah, im having fun. two students has just been added to my list, so right now i have 5 students. and im having a dillema. im not sure about this yet but.. one thing's for sure i don't want to leave my students.. just yet.. huhu. but i want to push through with the plan.. well not really a plan but yeah, it's something like that.. im still thinking about it though... i hope i'll be able to decide on it before may.. sigh.

and the semester is finally done, although i have to take some special exams, still im glad it's summer and i can finally relax. im teaching piano again. other than that im trying to concentrate on working on some pieces that i want to play. and yeah, i started reading twilight but i realized i didn't like it that much. it's pretty boring, with all the edward-bella conversations. i mean with all due respect to the fans. what interests me is the character developments of the other vampires, for example, Carlisle. Haha. yeah, im crazy about Carlisle. He's so kind and compassionate and yes, sexy (in the movie). haha. im still on the first book though, i might finish it or not.. *shrugs*
and also im loving Leona Lewis and her songs. haha. One song was introduced to me by Yume it's entitled Better In Time. it's a nice song. and it somehow applies to what I feel now. i've resolved to move forward. it hurts just to even think about it. to think about forgetting about someone and how much that person means to you, but if it means losing myself in the process.. id rather stop this and move on in my life. yeah. that's just how it will be from now on. i just hope i will be strong enough this time. (to you who might read this, i hope you stop acting silly and hiding away from me. don't give 'implied' actions that you just want me to interpret it. ) if you want to disappoint me, then by all means, but i hope you know, it's not just me that will be disappointed, but also yourself.  you will eventually or already disappointed with yourself.

don't worry now, it will all be over na. i will move on.


Better In Time

(Ooooh)

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

This is one of the pieces that I really want to learn. It's a favorite. And the way Freddy Kempf played it...makes me want to go back to those days..when..nothing mattered to me but my sanity.
Be free...

another post by kuya moe caught my attention again and i would like to also share it here. i am such a sucker in sharing somebody else's post. weh~
anyhow.. you can find his post here.

"We are afraid of what comes next, we wanted to meet someone, and we want to fall in love but we know the risks that lead to love. They may cause us pain. It is the fear of that pain, that is what holds us back. It is what we need to let go of. And it's not a question of whether we can or whether we can't.

Taking a risk is like jumping of a cliff, it's a leap into the unknown with absolutely no guarantees. Because ultimately, we just have to decide, we have to choose, how we are going to be. We could spend the rest of our life caught up in the fear of inperfection or we could face it.

Take the leap and see what comes."

”Unexpressed feelings will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways…"


Sigmund Freud 

"...reality bites. Let's bite it back! I'm not giving up w/o giving it one hell of a fight."